another boring day at uni today and its been pissin it down all day. typical yorkshire weather. ive decided im gonna go to the doctors next week and try to talk to them about me problems im shittin meself and i aint even made an appointment yet. strangly though im feelin quite calm today. yesterday i couldnt stop crying i spent ages writin on here then the connection timed out and deleted it all. they say that a good cry helps you and u should let it all out but i havnt been able to cry ive not had that much emotion. once i started i just couldnt stop then i went a bit crazy and started throwin things. then i looked at me scissors and wanted to cut but something i dont know kinda kicked in anyway i ended up throwin them down on the floor too then just started again wi all the crying