ive had another lazy day today not been to uni so just slept!! i am so lazy. feelin ok again today just very confused. basically id met this guy on the internet and talk to him quite a lot. he knows all about my depression and self harming and to be honest he does wonders for me. hes great to talk to and he has talked me out of doin some silly things and hes a right laugh. well we were talkin last nite and he was saying that secretly he was quite fond of me even though weve never met and said its a shame that hes too old. hes 27 im 19, 20 in may. thats quite a big age gap. i was winding him up saying yeah u are old haha that kinda stuff. and then he said he wouldnt have said that he liked me if he didnt think it was mutual. ARRGGGHHHHHHH then he said the balls in my court totally up to me. hes pretty cute and great personality but ive never met him in person and he lives miles away from me. men. always messin it up (hehe sorry guys) i really hope he was winding me up. im flattered like but i dont want a realtionship at the moment theres too much goin on. hopefully ill get to speak to him later on tonite and see what happens!! anyway im feelin a bit hungry might have some spag bol mmmmmm!!!!