i woke up this morning covered in blood. id had a really bad nose bleed in my sleep how can it bleed in the night. anyway it was a rite mess. i cant believe tom. he soo fuckin pissed me off last nite i ended up cutting cos i felt so shit and had no control he was off his head on drugs and i was talkin to him on msn. he started goin on about how i put myself down all the time and that i dont know what i am. i kept asking him to tell me what i am if he thinks he knows so much about me i never actually met the guy in person. anyway all this shit kept gettin said and he wants to meet me and he was goin on about how nice i am blah blah blah. then he asked me to marry him fuckin marriage i dont actually believe in marriage cos im not a religious person so i dont see the point of gettin married in a church, and if u really love someone why do u need a piece of paper to prove it and i wouldnt wanna end up another divorce statistic anyway i just basically told him to fuck off and he didnt mean it and he kept saying he did and then he was being really stupid and tellin me what hed like to do to me yeah alarm bells ringing this carried on and then he was texting me being soo fuckin dirty and in a worrying way to me . it pissed me off big time i thought he was a "friend". i mean even though i never met him i talk to him on internet all the time and he knows a lot about me and hes usually really good to talk to and i can have a laugh wi him. he kept goin on that he loved me and i wanted to scream. iknow it sounds really pathetic but some of the stuff he was comin out wi. im not sure if its cos of the depression but i take things so seriously now and its harder to laugh things off like i normally would do. anyways a cigarette is callin my name!!