Hey Sarah, Well today has been really interesting. I got to go to Badminton and they ran and drilled the life out of us. Good gosh! If you didn't know better you just might think that they were pissed and wanted to make us suffffeeerrr!!! Well, I will feel those pains tomorrow. I am looking foward to Saturday. Should be great fun. Kinda sad that Stephen and Diego can't come to see my game on Thursay....thats ok they probablly have better things to do. I will see them on Saturday!! Oh Sarah, (to make a complicated and LONG situation short) last night after the badminton game I told my brother to wait for me and I would drive him home to Chandler where my dad lives. Well....as you know things didn't work out and I had to have him call my dad and have HIM come and pick Devin up. While in the brief moment I saw Devin I asked him if he knew what was with dad. (remember how last orchestra concert he blew up at me in the parking lot and I was crying?..and, oh yeah, he told me to get over "my crap"...:( ) Well....as far as I knew things were going well, I was seeing that half of the family again and things were not perfectly "normal" but on the road to becomming better after the 5 years. Well Devin told me last night that my dad thought I was still mad at him b/c I was not calling and whatever. What should I do? I have already "talked" with him about our past relationship and I thought we were past that. I guess not! Every time I see him he brings up our relationship and wants to talk about it....even in public. Randomly mind you!! Its not a "oh...how are you, how have things been goin?"... kinda thing (after all I dont see him hardly at all to begin with) but it is always my fault b/c I need to get over my crap. Also, any time I see him I freeze and just cry. The dad that I never had suddenly wanting to be in my life again now that I was learning to live with out one.... Interesting situation that whole thing is. Well not to be totally depressing or sad....I agree. This writing on-line is wierd but very cool!! :) btw, I did end up getting a GREAT group for english III and out discussion group. (hint hint, wink wink.) so cute! Well now that this is a true diary entry I am going to go and do some homework. Fun fun! Talk to you later! Audra* (P.S. we have to think of a "plan")