Audra, I hope you read this soon. I know we differ on opinion about what to do about some things, but it's 9:30 and I haven't done any more hw than I did before the dance yesterday. I don't have any reason to cry really, but when I got off the phone with you, I cried, and now I'm crying again. Oh, and between the two crying times I called Stephen (which pissed off Diego...I wish he'd understand that I had a pretty good reason to talk with Stephen). I feel really upset, and yet again I can't pinpoint exactly why. Stephen helped me figure it out before (and I felt much better), but now I'm upset again and I don't know why again. I think this time it's because I know Diego is mad at me (which would help if I knew why he was upset so I could try and make it better, but he seems to be mad at the world and taking it out on me). I hate crying and having sucky things happen. I also hate not knowing what’s going on. I guess those are the two main reasons why I’m in this position. SO……….(sigh)…although I’m crying right now, I’ve had a pretty good past couple of days. Friday night the 3 of us (like you know) went to the DMHS hc game, which really was fun (even though Stephen and Diego didn’t think I was having fun). Beforehand the 3 of us had dinner, which Diego cooked (very cute), and then we went really late to the game. I got to meet all the people we’ve been hearing about for months (they’re all really nice, cool people), and everyone went to a park after the game (shh, don’t tell my mom). We all had a lot of fun running around, and I really had a blast (even though, again, they didn’t think I did). Last night was hc. For most of the day I didn’t even know if we were going, but everything turned out okay, and we went. Diego’s mom wouldn’t let him go out to dinner, so he (again…how cute)…made dinner. He really is a good cook, but for some reason he won’t believe it when people tell him this kinda thing (oh well…you can only tell someone so many times that you REALLY like what they made). I do think it was better that we didn’t go out to eat…I think we had more fun this way. We then went to the dance, which was also fun (which again…they don’t think I had fun…but I really did…I’m just not as outgoing when I don’t know the people around me very well…I think I did okay with that though). I had as much fun as anyone possibly could with people they’ve only known for 2 days. The girls in the group were really accepting, which is a good thing since I was kinda worried how they’d react. They (Stephen and Diego) kept asking me who was my favorite, and I really couldn’t answer because I’d only known these people for 2 days (but if I HAD to chose I’d probably pick Nisha or Lindsay T.). For the most part it was fun; some awkward moments, but not any different than any other dance. Strangely enough I dance with Stephen quite a bit, but he was the only other good friend I had there (I’m glad he was there or else I’d feel kinda alone for a lot of the time). Afterwards I we went over to Stephen’s house, and I kept falling asleep, and THEN drove home (not a good combination…my mom wasn’t too happy). So yeah…that was overall a fun experience. Today we went to se “A Year with Frog and Toad”…a children’s musical. It was quite cute, but it felt kinda odd to be there with all these 2-7 year olds. The set was really well designed though, and the performers really did a good job. After I got home, I talked with Diego for a long time about different issues (he wasn’t in that great of a mood). I then talked to you, cried, talked to Stephen, got online, cried again, and am now writing this. I hate drama, and I wish it would just go away. Why can’t things be happy or sad? Why the horrible in-between feeling? Now that it’s almost 10, I’m going to start my freaking hw…but I do feel quite a bit better. I guess the good from the weekend really outweighs the present not so goodness. I hope you had fun at Chuck-E-Cheese’s today, I’ll see you tomorrow (and I’ll probably be needing a hug by then). I guess I’m to a state of not really caring what happens (not good), but then at least I can deal (at least momentarily) with everything (whether the outcome be good or bad). You’re the greatest~ Sarah:) (P.S. I know you’re reading this, so Stephen: I spelled whether right…and Diego: please don’t be mad/upset, I know life can suck at times, but you’re friends are the ones who are there for you when that happens) (P.P.S. Audra- Make sure I get more sleep…I need it)