Sometimes I wish I could start a new diary, but my IP would be shown anyway. I just want to be actually honest, and say what I'm really thinking. I'm too afraid. The more I think about those real things, the more bitter I get. I dont even know why I'm crying either. I saw him today. Mark doesn't know. He would kill me. He looked good. Smelt good, the same, like always. He brushed past, he knew what I was thinking. I didnt. Good thing I looked stylish. I got a Viva today. I didn't get the Paradise Punch, and Mark didn't get the Carribean Cocktail. I tried Ocean Breeze and he got Raspberry rush. We both got vitamin boosters. We're such Glenferrie Camberwell people. Probably because thats where we always end up (outside Viva). Pity 9 out of 10 people who parade there are beautiful, and drive mercedes. I'm talking to Ellina, and I realise her relationship with her boyfriend is very similar to mine with Mark.