ok, i've been thinking about this. i have come to the realization that, i have no true friends. yeah, i have friends at school- we talk say hi, scream when we see our boyfriends/girlfriends, laugh at eachother, joke. but i never really see them outside of school, i have no social life. but i geuss i dont make an effort to have one. i wish i had one though. i never have anything to do, nor do i have anywhere to go. i dont have someone that is always there for me, when im suicidal no one is there holding my hand. when im depressed no one is making me laugh. when im happy there is no one who wants to be happy with me. i am always happy when everyone else is sad. like, my emotions are out of whack. everyone is on a different schedual. yeah i know, im bipolar (or so they try to tell me) so maybe that has something to do with it? i dont know. if i had a car and a liscense maybe that would help? but i dont, and none of my "friends" do. wouldnt it be great if i died my hair blue? !my icon thing at the top of every entry is chris, with a couple of modifications.