all this hatred over flowing dosen't seem to stop the constant feeling of wanting to kill someone today, is your day i wish it would stop im crying for no reason the tears are puring feels like it wont stop i cry, because theres no way out accept for death but i've tried that today feels like my day to die -------------- (written in harbor oaks) i miss your crys and i miss your smile i miss your eyes and i miss your laugh there are so many things i wish i could keep with me so many people i wish i could take with me Harbor Oaks again i want to hear your voice and the way you used to talk to me i want to see your face and the way you always look at me its hard knowing what you cant have and what you never will its hard knowing things are in the past and harder when they will come back -------------- (written in harbor oaks) theres a blood stain on my sheet a little girl crys and screams theres a razor blade in her hand im starting to blend in with the walls they put my on 5 minutes checks for telling them to fuck off i've got cramps from here, to the quiet room they wont let me have my chapstick my heart punds agaisnt the window theres writing on the plain white walls i cant make it out, help me? maybe the scars on my arm have faded unlike the color of his eyes they're here but they arent HERE the light, in the left corner flickers they painted the double doors blue the shower is broken you have to bend over to wash your hair i colored my turkey gray you dont understand the pain hasnt gone away ------------------------ (and now heres the old shit) Havent done it in a while wonder what will make me stop if anything will, it used to be you and this time, theres nothing left to do but sit here all alone thinking about my life and another look and my old bloddy knife you dont know all my problems and you'll never know my pain but you would do it too, if you had nothing left to gain ------------------------------- nothing to say no one to see nothing is left but you and me im sorry to say but things arent right it will never be perfect always another fight so much tension not a smile in sight its just a glance and i see, your in a trance but fuck who cares cus you say i dont you know the truth and i geuss i wont so call me crazy for what i say ill be saying the same shit everyday ------------------------------ theres a few more i want to post, but i dont feel like typing them out, so another time.