Well this day is going crappy... I am so mad. Every guy I date changes, and most don't even realize it. Like Shane, Matt, Chris, Justin, and a few more... I must be evil or sumthing, b/c I sure do something to every guy I date.... They all turn into these really quiet guys or these guys that act all macho all the time. I just want to say it is over b/c I am tired of these guys, maybe I will turn lesbian or something or never date agin if me and Chris break up. He said that a lot of girls break up with him because they want him to change and he won't, well he changed on his own and I do not like this new him at all... Not even a little bit. I just want to throw my hands up and say I GIVE UP.. But giving up is something I don't usually do but I am so tired of the dumb shit. So tired of the crap. I am tired of trying because thats when I get shit on. So maybe if I just quit.. IT ALL then people would realize i don't want them to change. I like the them i met in the first place.. Thats the person I like. thats the person I knew. THATS THE PERSON I LOVE... Not the THING they turned into after we met........................... I do not know what to do. I am tired, the war I am fightng on change with people is making me change myself..I do not want o change... I like the me inside and there is nothing wrong with that....... IS THERE?