Man I haven't worte in this thing in a long time. Derrick and I are still dating. 4 months on Monday, which is great for me because I really haven't been able to stay in a relationship ever since my first real love. So, maybe this is my second love. lol Anyways, I really can't wait until prom. I have this really pretty dress, and Derrick is so damn sexy in a tux. Dark hair Dark eyes, that mystery look always gets me. I get hot just looking at him ... jk... a little. I really need to change my background it hasnt been changed in god knows when. I am so glad that we have stayed to gether this long. but the only thing that scares me is that he is still a virgin, and that scares me bc i do not want to be his first. but i got the feeling that i am going to be his first just because we have already gone so far. I love him alot and it wouldn;t bother me to take it, if i didn;t have a bad first time. and i dont want him to be like i can't believe i slept with that whore if we ever break up. U can call me weird if you want, but he is the nicest guy i have ever dated. I do not want to loose him.. which i almost did last night. I was just kidding around and drove around the block, but he thought i left, i really didn't think anything of it, but i found out it really did hurt him. I had no intention of doing so. he cannot tell when i am kidding and when i am not. i look so serious when i am kidding and i willl admit to that. and he thinks i am constantly mad at him, which i am not. but now since we got that all worked out we are ok. well i am going to go and change my background mare