Everyone's away messages on Friday nights are always the same. 'Out with the crew!'...'chillin with my boyfriend and his friends'. I am so sick of that. The thing that kills me, is their 'crew' usually consists of like, 16 people. I have friends. 2. Yeah, 2 friends. Marcie and Jessica, and i am so thankful for that because there great, and the best friends i could and will ever have. But i wish sometimes that i had more of them. I remember in 8th grade, i would be able to tell people, "Oh, i can't...i have plans already." Ha i don't know when the last time i said that was. And i used to think that when i get my car, it will make everything better, yeah that's a lie. Now that i think about it, it will probably just make me feel even more lonesome. I mean yeah, i have those friends that i hang out with at school and stuff, but i don't hang out with them out of school. I would, but i always feel like if something happened outside of school, it would make school harder. You know like "Always keep your love life and your office life seperate"...or something like that. Anywho what i'm trying to say, is i think i'm just gonna be like super outgoing with everyone. Random people that walk buy, who knows it may be my new best friend. I just feel so locked up, and i know that if i talked to more people and didn't worry so much about if i think they really like me or not i could have more of what i don't have now.