wow...so today i went to the doctors at 3 cuz i had an appointment that my mom never told me about so yeah we go to the place and the wait is gonna be like 2 hours so my mom reschedules and we go back home to go pick up my brothers so my sister can go job searching at pv mall! then we went to frys! woohoo! and on our way home tace bell, but anywayz on our way home my brother matthew (5)hits my other brother nicky(8) for like no reason, then i told my mom how they always fight when i babysitt and they punch each other back and forth so then nicky breaks down crying and yells 'MY LIFE IS MISERABLE' and he was crying so much and i was about to cry it was soo sad and then my mom was like 'thats a little overdramatic nicky' and hes like 'NO I ALREADY PRAYED TO GOD' and so my mom was like 'about what?' and he said 'to give me a better life cuz its miserable' and i knew that he was over acting but it was still so sad and it just made me realize so much, its hard to explain but i dont know..maybe i will understand later so last night i started writing a book, ive actually STARTED writign plenty books in my life but never finished them, but this one i wanna finish and i want it to give a message of some sort im not sure what! but yeah..