oh lordy....its augusT first that means 16 effin days till school starts..ahhh i so dont want to go to school, particularly my schoool..but anywayz im funna have to go, the only things im looking forward to this year are retreat, missions, and jessica! maybe a few more things but i aint thinking of them right now. i miss talking to AAP and scott...i talked to them all tha time! oh man i havent talked to AAP in forever!!! and my ashlee i miss her face i need to see her! COME HOMEE...! ..so yeah heres one of my poems... Deep within Me I dont have anything to hide, i have everything to hide and now you keep saying im beautiful on the inside But thats all wrong i have so much sin i tried to keep the devil out, but he still got in Now im ugly on the inside and the out this isnt the real me i have no doubt i use to be innocent, pure and kind but thats the person i cannot find inside im screaming, but noone hears my cry this fake smile is just another hopeless lie i feel the wall blocking who i use to be why cant i break it and be the real me inside of me, i am all black black heart, black hole, what do i lack? all the good lives are taken and i got left with this everyone else seems happy, what did i miss? i know its time to take off my disguise and ask God for forgiveness for all my lies but thats harder than you think im so ashamed i have to admit i'm not who i claimed