Well.. today is the last day of my vacation. Once again I have to wake up early to go to school. I really dont mined... at least Im getting away from my house and away from my family.^-^ Its going to be nice seeing very one again, especially Oso Rojo. This semester Im going to try to study or at least open a textbook. I really dont know why I cant keep things I hear from the teachers in my head. Every time I try to hear them I just get lost in everything they say, even after I have been paying attention. I think after what had happen to me my first year of high school, I really dont care of my school work. Others what me to take a position that I was fighting ever since I was 13, and now I really dont know if I what it. I have a life, and in this life I have two more souls that are in my hands. Do I want them. YES, I want to know what a famiy is, mine was never there for me but now, I see that I might have a chance with someone. I really never had one just like him. I have seen people like him but I never thought that I would be with someone so good like him. If one sees and knows my life they might think that he is not right for me, but I have changed. Gordo, you and all the others that came to see me, told me that I was not the same, and I agreed with all of you. When I was on that hill I always thought if I would ever have a life besides the one that gave my childhood to. Or if anyone would like me for me, after knowen, that I took peoples lifes, and hurt people's family's. And know that Im beginning to see what love, careing, and all this other things that I am having, can I really move forward. @)-