A new me, a change for the best. If I cant escape by past then I have to PLAY back. Its funny when people us other people to forget people. That makes me laugh. People just cant move on without hurting others can they. If you cant move on my your self then dont involve other people. This are the type of people that I hate with my half heart. I have people like that now, thats way I decide to change, my old feelings and cares are coming back to me, but in a different way. I just let things go, when people fucked with me I didnt do anything about it b/c I was tiring to change, but seeing that I cant these people are going to pay, I dont care if these involves their family, or their feelings. Fuck their feelings, not once did they think about my feelings when they fucked with me. Now, I care for the stuff that I know that I can achieve,and about me not being a bitch to others.....I cant help it, that came back in the worst way today. I now when Im defected, and when I have VICTORY. Just like he said, "people like us dont change we just get rusty in the things we used to do" And yes tears are for the weak. If people aren't going to like my change, I can care less, its my life and I can do want ever I want. Just have to be careful not to hurt the people that care for me. Anyways today we had a gathering with my family, you can say it was a full house. We ate "Lenguitas" they were good, especially when I made them, after that we talked, this is when I told them about my change. I made mom cry, but she'll be ok. The rest of them really didnt care, they just want me to have a future, a future were I rely on myself. Just have to think what to do with the coming years. The idea of helping Mexican children is something that I might look into. @}-