well. im not gunna say what i've been up to lately, not much to say but mainly im here to write an emo thing for all of you to read everyone has so much drama. i dont know if can take it. my head is going to explode. like i dont understand why everyone elses problems are affecting me so greatly. usually none of this happens. usually i can control most of the things that i hear(in a sense of how i take them) but recently thats not the case. i dont get whats going on. im starting to feel onse again like i have no control over anything in my life including myself...its starting to scare because last time this happened i did something bad. really really bad. im really really scared right now. not because of how im feeling but because of how other people are acting. im so scared that somethings going to happen. i dont want anything bad to happen. i dont get why when everything starts to go good then all of a sudden it all goes down hill. on top of this i had an audition yesterday, a science final today, a concert today, a concert next thursday, a book review due wednesday, a history oral report due next friday, and i have to worry about my grades because i cant get a D on a report card isnt all this stuff just lovely!? NOT