most people have the moms that tell them they're beautiful. some of them have the moms that go out of there way to let them know that they're "so pretty" or "beautiful" or "amazing", but i guess my mom missed the meeting that told all the moms that they were supposed to tell they're kids that they're prtty, even if they're not. i've just been feeling not so pretty lately, and at first i just pushed it aside, but then it just started to really bother me. Shannons mom goes out of her way to tell shannon how pretty she is, everyday. i love it. i'm so happy shannon gets to here that because i know how it feels to not here it. i think i've heard my mom say it to me once in the past like 2 or 3 years. i was upset because people had been making fun of my nose and all she could say was "oh becca shut up you're beautiful even with your nose."...as you might have guessed, that didn't help the situation at all. today i told my mom that i no longer was going to shave. i see no point in it. she said she sees no point in the computer. she can suck my fat one. but then she started getting all mad at me because i wasn't like her. well atleast thats what she said. i sat there and when she started telling me that i care what people think and that i'm going to feel awful when people make fun of me for not shaving, i got mad. really really mad. i started yelling but realized there was no point so i shut up. i started to get all teary eyed. i hate that. so then we kept driving and i asked her if she thought i was pretty and all she said was "yeah, but you're going to have an even harder time getting a boyfriend if you don't shave." can you believe that? boy she has some nerve. but i like shannons mom, she tells me i'm pretty. and when she says it i smille and look at her and i can tell by the look that she gives me that not only does she mean it, but she knows i don't hear it much. i don't know how she knows, maybe because i get an automatic smile when she says it, but i don't care how she knows it just matters that she cares enough to say it.