i love this song. my new addiction. this and a boy brushed red living in black and white by underoath. its a good music to get over someone. it snowed last night. after 2 weeks of nice warm weather it rained all day . . it snowed. everything is different it when it snows. i love it when it snows cause its a small bit of hope came my way. I went bowling this morning with my little brother. I bowl for my highschool so i went to go practice since we have a match tomorrow.The lanes were horrible. my ball wouldnt react and go up. My little brother and i had fun though it was a nice bonding experience with him haha. When my mom came to pick us up. she was in a bad mood. i hate it when shes like that, cause i always think its my fault. She always ruins a happy moment. I always feel like im not good enough when it comes to her. cause i always didnt do something. I dont know if ill be good enough in her eyes. Have you ever felt like your best friends, isnt really your best friend. that you have to second guess him or her? thats my problem. I feel like my best friend has forgotten about me. We dont even talk outside of school anymore. Ever since shes been friends with the girl i loathe things have changed completely and she hasnt realized that. I dont care that shes friends with her, but it feels like shes forgotten me entirely. When my friend and this girl started hanging out over the summer, i told her to watch out cause this chick has a way of keeping my friends away and keepin it that way. i got yelled at for not trustin her. but she doesnt get how maniplutative this girl is. i know, this chick has done the same shit to me. and then recently, when she was dating some kid who bowled, she told me she was going to go see him the day that we were all practicing. when i asked her who was taking her, she told me it was the girl that i hated. and i told her, just keep her away from me cause ill flipp out. then i got a accused of being immature. errrr, i dont know what to do anymore in this situation. your thoughts? urgh. well i gotta go. i gotta clean my room && do some homework, maybe ill write some more later. ♥leila