I was looking through my emails and i found this that i wanted to put in a diary once i got one so here it is....i wrote it on 10/5/2005. It was written to Landen. Hello, How are you doing? Great I hope. I feel like I am losing touch with you, but I think that is how it is supposed to be. My day today was great! My 8am class was canceled and so I went to the music building and slept for am hour and a half!!! It was great. Then today in Wind ensemble I got to chose a song that I want to introduce for our concert next week! I am so excited. Marching band today was so pathetic compared to what I saw from you guys this past weekend. I wrote down a whole bunch of notes though so it was mostly affective for me at least. I really miss you so much and wish that what we had on Fri. and Sat. could be what life was like all the time between us!!! I really had so much fun. It was like having a boyfriend for real! I know you must be sick of me telling you this but...I love you!!! I really like the texts you sent they are so sweet. I was kind of confused at why you were up so late on Mon. night though, why was that? Your one you sent last night was confusing also. You have never said anything like that before and my gut tells me that there is more to the story than just that. Would you maybe inform me on what is going on that would make you say that or have the urge to tell me that. Not that it is a bad thing...it is very sweet actually but that just doesn't seem like you to tell me that if I was feeling bad and needed to talk you were only a phone call away. That sounds like something I would say. OH NO!!!! I am rubbing off on you I had better stop talking to you. Wait I already have. sad...*cry*...*sniffles*. oh well. I have to go and practice now so I hope you are well and you can maybe talk to me later. Hey so what is going on with you and Emily now a days? I am dying to know. With all my love and affection, Leza