wow... so i got on here for the first time since february... my name says "josh's koree" and that i am sixteen. that is not right. i am not josh's koree, nor am i sixteen... but i am still a girl... i don't really come on here anymore. i use LiveJournal now... sorry sitdiary, i love you still! it's late - i think i'll go have some hot chocolate and read something... 'night.

what does crestfallen mean? because if it means that every little thing is making me cry today because everything seems to be going wrong... then thats how i feel. i haven't written on here since october... thats pretty sad. i'm really confused lately. i love josh to death... but lets face the facts... sometimes guys are confusing. i just want him to be a bit more blunt sometimes. i have the Broadway Revue show tomorrow and i don't even get to go to the rehearsal before because i have to work at the bakery... i feel like a slacker... even though i'm being overworked. that doesn't seem to make sense. oh well. i put in my two weeks to the bakery, so i'll be done soon enough. i'm scared about college. i need a scholarship, and i don't have one yet. CoNfUsIoN!!!

hang on or let go? that is the question. thats all i have to say. goodbye. it's funny when you think it's gonna work out

hello. new entry. i miss josh a lot. i want him to work... but honestly it sux. i had a volley ball game today, i only played half of the first game cuz my stupid hand started acting up. i'm in a weird mood right now. not like... "weird" mood... but, to me, this mood is really weird. yeah. i feel like i could just go walk down an empty rainy street at night and be happy about life. that is odd. so, i might teach the broadway review class at North Cache... weird hu? i thought so. i'm still debating. well... i'm going to go play my guitar with my new interesting mood. who knows, maybe i'll be able to write a song. Look at the sky baby What do you see? Looks like the tears that I cry Fallin' down like rain on the ground Every time you say goodbye

i don't want to go back to school. next thursday. thats basically a little over a week. not cool. i miss my friends... but... I DON'T WANT TO GO!! *cry cry* anyway... must be positive. must not get senioritus any worse. must try hard in school. must ATTEMPT to be excited to go back. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! thats all. thainx. oh, and josh is sad that i don't post much about him... so... I LOVE YOU JOSH!!!

i haven't been writing much... i actually got a blogspot... cuz this was being so undependable... but i think i'm back if this will work. i hope everyone's summers are going well. mine is. too well. i don't want to go back to school AT ALL!!! i just want to skip high school and head off to college. i hope i'm not the only one who feels that way. but i got senioritis BAD! and school hasn't started yet! i went to EFY last week. it was amazing!! i miss those people so freaking much!!! i can't wait to go again next year! guess i'll see you all at school.... grrrrr l8r.

landen... call ME next time. cuz... i didn't get that message until way after you left it. but... thainx. anyway... for all others who read this darned thing, i haven't been updating much. but here i am, updating. i am SO thrilled for spiderman 3!! i know it doesn't come out until may 4th... next year... but i am so excited!! wooooooooohoooooo! this summer is going fairly well for me, i don't want it to end. how about you?

i went and saw 'cars' today with my family, and josh came. it was so funny, but now i'm all alone. dad is out in his shop, mom is at water aerobics, kassi went with her, and tj is in bed. and josh is at his cousin's. when i put tj to bed i fell asleep for about 15 min and had a terrible nightmare thingy... i wish josh was home so i could call him and talk to him. i'm scared to go asleep again. i probably won't. i watched my grandpa play and sing with his acoustic electric guitar tonight... he's amazing, i hope somehow i got his talent and someday i can be that good... i wish. he's tabing out Good Charlotte's 'footloose' version so that our band can play it, i'm excited... its awesome. he wants me and josh to go over sometime and 'jam' with him and my grandma... they're so amazing at it though... i'll feel like a MAJOR beginner. oh well... it will be fun. g'night. i'm going to go play my guitar and wish i had my josh. hope your night goes better! :D

TJ keeps leaving the toilet seat up. i fell into it again. there is nothing that can be worse than a guy leaving the seat up. thats why girls don't like it. its not that it 'looks untidy' or 'is unpolite' those are just nice things to say because they don't like to say that they go in to sit down and if they don't notice the seat is up, they sit down and get their heart scared out because they fall in the toilet! so... for you guys who are reading this... CLOSE THE FREAKING TOILET SEAT. thats all thank you.

well, i'm back from California and it was cool. yeah, normally i use words like amazing and wonderful... but... it was... cool. actually it was freaking hot! but it wasn't that fun. it was 110*. IN THE MORNING! it just got hotter from there... and i don't like heat. at least there was a swimming pool. we went to disney land for 3 days... which, i decided, is definately a kids place. for taking you 'little' kids. even an easily entertained person like me did not have a very enjoyable time. sorry if any of you people reading this are total disney land freaks. i also went to lego land. this was for 'smaller' 'little' kids. but it was cool to see the lego sculptures and stuff... just the rides sucked. yeah, so thats my story, i'm not even tan from it, there was too much pollution to let the sun through... pretty sad hu? yeah, it is. but to make things worse, i got in an accident before we left. the day before we left. and it was awful. i can't drive because i'm missing my front bumper, and i have to go to court, because mom refuses to let the cop get away with giving me that ticket... because technically i don't deserve it... maybe a different one, but not that one. and if it goes on my record, i'll be considered a 'reckless driver' or something like that... when it was the other guys fault... ya. thats why we're going to court. so we got this lawyer and all... and i know if i have to say a single thing... i'll start bawling. anyway... nothing else is really interesting. course none of that really was either... but oh well. merry summer. i hope mine gets better. call me if you want to do something... that needs to include picking me up or something though considering i don't have a car for a while... so i'll understand if no one calls. i'm just rambling now. i miss my josh really bad. i didn't see him for a whole week, and so now when i see him, i feel like he's leaving forever everytime he leaves my house, or hangs up the phone... it's crazy i know. it was only a week. but it was hard. it's like i'm addicted to him or something! i'll shut up now. g'night

He made my birthday so perfect, what happened?

Happy Birthday Andi! and Garrick tomorrow. ok, now to me! cuz i'm so interesting, i know. jk! i went and saw josh's brother, jarin, yeah, i saw his soccer game. poor kid, got hit in the face with the ball and totally screwed up around his eyeball with his glasses, and then his glasses broke... ouch. he's a cute kid though, and he played good... but OUCH! i got my letter in thespians! yay! honor thespian too! i'm excited. 'cept i didn't make clerk... tears over that one. oh well. i had fun, and there was good food. i want to play in the water. well... 5 days until my birthday! yay! and my birthday party is on saturday night... so if for some reason you didn't get an invite, let me know! ttfn... ta ta for now!

well apparently it was a big mistake to say i was going to miss my missionary buddies... my bad. 7 days until my birthday... i'm excited. scratch the truck idea. i like my car...:D banquet tomorrow... ga! much luv y'all.

well, i have to say 'Miracle Worker' was one of the best plays i have ever seen in my life! they were such good actors! holy cow! especially the girl who played Hellen, she was only in 4th grade and she acted blind SO well! it was amazing. i ran for Clerk in Thespian Presidency today. i doubt i made it, but i had fun either way. if i don't make it, i hope adrea did, i think she would do a good job. (but i must add i did vote for myself... teehee) anyway, my favorite skit thing was Erin's. it was hillarious! anyone one who saw, MUST agree. i'm going to Josh's house tomorrow to watch movies! i'm excited. i haven't hung out with him for awhile that didn't have something to do with the band or drama! yay! and guess what else? my birthday is in 11 days! yippee! i'm going to have my party and SV pool. i'm excited. me and Andi are combining birthdays. hers is on the 17th. i am completely thrilled!! you know what i want most for my birthday? a truck. i know that sounds completely spoiled and everything, but i really want one. nothing big, just a littled dodge would suit me very well. it don't even have to be a diesel... well... nm. it has to be a diesel. but i'd take a v8 or something little u know... haha. it actually is quite a possibility... dad bought a truck on tuesday that he is fixing up a bit... but i won't expect anything. i do think i deserve one though... dad said that if i was a good driver he would get me a new vehicle for my senior year... it's almost my senior year isn't it??? and i havn't got any tickets or been in any MAJOR accidents... (knock on wood)but i won't get my hopes up. oo oo oo! Blake got back from his mission! he came over today and saw us... i missed him. he used to work for my dad. he is having his welcome home thing this sunday, the same day that his brother is having his farewell! weird hu? i really am going to miss his brother. a lot. we weren't really friends at school, but we used to go four-wheeling together. he is cool. i'll write though. AND Brad Allen is leaving on his mission on the 24th! holy cow! and Nate and Manuel have left... so sad... but i really am proud of them. really. well... long enough. i've been listening to Good Charolotte ALL DAY!! i luv em.

hi all. a lot of sad things are going on right now... but for some reason, i'm reasonably happy at the moment. i miss josh. MY josh. he was going to come over today, and now he can't cuz his dad won't let him. and he can't go to the play tomorrow. sadness. but whats weird... is instead of feeling really depressed... i just really want to hug him. BAD! i want to give him the tightest hug i've ever given anybody and i don't want to let go, cuz i want him to know how much i love him. anyway... of course i'm still upset about the landen/francis thing... i just don't understand that. fracis is so cute... if i was a guy, i know she'd be on my list! i don't know whats going on with landen though, so i won't blame. i just hope everything works out. ttyl. i love josh. (just thought i'd announce the twitterpation... haha) bye all!

You say you're cried a thousand rivers And now you're swimming for the shore You left me drowning in my tears And you won't save me anymore Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance I'll be there for you These five words I swear to you When you breathe I want to be the air for you I'll be there for you I'd live and I'd die for you Steal the sun from the sky for you Words can't say what a love can do I'll be there for you

state drama was fun. i didn't win anything. for juvie or barefoot... but i had fun. i got to be with my josh all weekend and i got to room with cassie! that rocked! i can't wait to do something like that again! yay!! go eat pie! P.S. LONG LIVE DADDY UBU!

guess what? i had a good day yesterday! i had a GOOD day yesterday!!! that may sound normal to some freakishly non-teenage persons... but to me, this is AMAZING! i had a GOOD day! do you want to know what happened? ok, i woke up at 7:30, and i went to salt lake with the young men and young women in my ward. we went to the place where they make food for the bishop's store house and stuff, and where people donate clothes, all those little service areas. oh, and i ate really good cheese! then we went to a church art museum, which was nothing short of AMAZING!! i really like going to art museums... i don't care if anyone thinks that is odd... but i like to. i like to go stare at a painting or sculpture for like 5-10 minutes. i love it. anyways... then we went to see the new Joseph Smith movie! it was awesome! i cried... but only a little. i recommend seeing it to anyone who hasn't. after the movie was over we hung around temple square for a while. me and devin ran around smelling all the flowers!! yay! there were tons!! then i noticed that on the temple, there is a constalation of a big dipper. i am WAY into constilations...(Even though i can't spell it)... so i asked Sid what it was on there for, and he went and asked this missionary, and guess what? the big dipper on the salt lake temple is a symbol of living water... i don't completely comprehend, but i still think it's cool. anyway... then we went home. then when i got home, i went to landen's house for band practice! josh, landen, ian, and francis were there. it rocked! then ian had to leave... :(... but we were playing, and josh made up this cool cord, and then we just started playing, and it was SO COOL! we made up a pretty shnazzy song! yaay! then i went home, and josh came with me. we put up my trampoline and then jumped and played around on it until almost 11. then i took him home. i like him alot. he makes me smile. anyways... that was my GOOD day!! C Ya!

i didn't know what to title this... so i made up a new word. shneekapanoonoo. do you know what it means? it means: feeling like crap, like you do everything wrong and you're not good enough to wipe the s*** off some dumb a**'s butt. anyways... mom did make me feel better by buying me some chocolate today. she's nice most of the time. i'd vent now... but i don't think anyone wants to hear it... and i already vented some to mom today. *sigh* life will get better. i mean... this is just a little moment in my life that isn't as great as i'd like it to be... big deal! *pouty crying noise* i need a hug. now. i'm going to go play with Essie(my guitar). that usually makes me feel better.

Wow. this is crazy. i have a lot to do! this saturday is Encore try-outs, and a 7 hour band practice, next saturday we are recording for our band, which has no name now, and the week after that, IS STATE DRAMA!!!! and since i feel like topping it off, i have to pay back dad for EFY, buy a plane ticket to Conneticut for this summer, and earn spending money for California! holy lots of money that i don't have!! but good news, i earned like $130 this week, so i should be able to give most of it to dad. *sigh* i went on a bike ride today. it was nice. very nice sunny day. well. i hope tomorrow is sunny too. bu bye.