Ya know just when i thought everything was going to be okay with my life i just go and screw it all up! It started out with Jason. He and I were actually talking to eachother and having good conversations and what not, but then I went and screwed it all over when i asked him if i could use his oven to bake some cookies because mine is broken. Well needless to say he forgot and totally stood me up and made me look like a fool. it really was all my stupid fault though because i should have said something or called him. Yeah and then yesterday i got in another huge fight with Landen. I told him that i had a hard time with the fact that he loved me when he had a girlfriend. and yeah so he said that he didn't want to see me when i come home this week. it was really hard but with the help of some awesome fhe brothers i saw that if that was what i was going to go through i didn't need to put up with that, and acording to dave i derserve much better and there is a ton of opportunities for me here. I don't know about that because right now i feel like i don't have anyone. i guess i am finally feeling complete and total empty and lonliness....i guess i will try and make the best of this and see if i can't try and be happy for today and fool everyone so no one knows that really deep down inside i am a mess....we will see...