So today was okay. it started off crappy but gradually got better! i love to go to marching band! maybe it is just i love to drum but something about it just makes me feel happy inside and like i am worth something and can do at least one thing good in my life. yeah then i went to fhe and we went bowling! it was so much fun! i bowled the worst game ever but i still had a ton of fun! so why, diary or anyone who cares to comment, that the world feels the need for secrets? what is the point? most likely in the end they just lead to pain and heart ache. who ever invented them ought to be ashamed fo themselves for coming up with the dirty little buggers! life would be so much easier if we were all open and honest with eachother, because if you think about it that is what all secrets lead to no matter how good the intention is. Lyes and deceit! and it hurts deep down all the way to the surface. i mean how can you trust someone who you find out has been lying to you this whole time. and how can they expect you to trust them? i don't know i just wish the world would just change and we could all be happy. but what fun would life be. i heck life would be boring if you didn't have any emotional pain and suffering.