Today I have been going over all my memories. I found out why Katie broke up with me, she said she did not love me anymore. That was on the 20th June 2005. I have here a text from her, dated 12th June 2005, saying she loves me with all her heart. The last time I had been as happy as I was with Gomez, my cat, was over 3 years ago. In the happy memory, I am just cuddled up with him, on my bed. That is the last happy memory I have before Katie, and even that ended up with me upset. We had to leave him in America, when we left. I have been looking for a happy memory, but they all end up the same way. I need a happy memory:( Your all beautiful