I talked to Yong yesterday. It was nice but it hurted. To finally hear the truth. To know that its reality..and not just me wondering. "I don't think he (vang) wants to see or talk to you anymore." Yeah. That stung. But whatcha gon' do right? All I can do is realize that its over. Its been over. Yong really cares about me as his little sister. I can tell. He's been telling me time and time again that Vang is just going to hurt me. I never listened of course. But he helps me out a lot. I miss talking to him. I miss all those guys. I miss a lot of things/people. TO FELICIA don't let another chance past by. You'll regret it soo much. Even if in the end it ends in heartache, it would've been worth it. For the moments, the memories. Its scary I know. But you're so lucky to be given this chance at love again. So take it, run with it, hold on to that thing for dear life..and never look back. TO ANDREA I'm so very happy for you. I know those feelings you're getting are wonderful. You deserve the BEST alright? (Well you already have the best, ME! But second best will do too). :) It seems everyone is inlove now-a-days and I'm so left out. HAHA..but its ok. I mean, yes, it'd be wonderful to be able to brag about my relationship with someone. But I don't have one to begin with. LOL so that's kind of hard. Things with West are on..hold? He's so darn confusing. At times he's great. Then its those small moments where I just want to bash his head in that really gets me. It so annoying when a guy makes it obvious that he's trying to get you jealous. and its even more annoying when I do get jealous. My sister, ERICA, is STUDENT OF THE MONTH at J. Curtin ELEMENTARY SCHOOL. SHE'S FOLLOWING MY FOOTSTEPS LOL.♥EM CONTINUATION Well, Mike told me something that made me realize a lot of stuff. He said "West really likes you, and he wishes that you would just stay here because he was really looking forward to seeing you for all four years. He even told me he hopes your dad gets fired so you have to stay. I hope so too. But, he doesn't want to get into a relationship with you because he doesn't want to be heartbroken when you leave." Aww..that's so cheesy "being heartbroken"..but so darn sweet at the same time. LOL I understand now. How one minute he just gets caught up in the moment and shows me the side that is infatuated with me, and then he realizes its not worth it. I understand him guarding himself from me. I just wish the situation wasn't like this. I DON'T NEED A REASON TO WANT TO STAY IN WISCONSIN but he's making it really hard. I don't want to play this game with him. Because before I know it I'm going to develop some serious feelings for him. And I actually might want to stay here. I actually might be heartbroken because of that boy.♥EM