"you have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you got and remember what you had.. always forgive, but never forget learn from your mistakes, but never regret people change things go wrong, but just remember life goes on" Its hard for me to see anyone I care about question why they're alive. Its hard to answer their questions because its just so obvious. You're here in life to leave your impact. You can change someone's world so easily, you can change the whole world too. Darling, to see you hurt, to see you down, brings me sadness too. Cause I know you deserve all the happiness in the world and so much more. You are such an incredible person who can go so far in life. Remember your dreams? Those dreams are what's suppose to keep you alive, keep you looking forward. Remember your future? Its suppose to be YOUR future to take control of. Go to New York like you want to, and make a new life for yourself. Its hard to look on the goodside of things when you're feeling low, but there always is one. Amanda, all of this. ALL OF IT is testing you. Its building up your character, your strength. Preparing you for your future. Your future in the arts, your future as an actress. You are the last person to deserve what's happening, but its happening. Beat it. To answer your question..you're alive because of yourself. Because, whenever its been too hard to handle, you always hoped for something better. Its not silly to hope Amanda, because hope is what keeps us going. You're here because you're amazing. Just remember, you do have people who care about you. Each time you find one person who doesn't like/care about you, you'll have ten more people who DO. ♥EM