i really cant do this. i thought i was going to be okay with it but im not. its just to mean. and hateful. and deceitful. i have to pick one. i cant lead both of them on. so ive made my choice. this one i know will always be there for me no matter what. he makes me laugh and feel beautiful and treats me like a princess. i know ive made the right choice. their is no doubt in my mind. i have to cut the other one off. i cant keep doing that to him. i know its going to kill him but he will always be my best friend. ive known him to long to just cut him out of my life. hes always been there when i needed someone to talk to and ive done the same for him. you know the first time he was put into jail i was the person he called? i was his one call. he told me he called me because he wanted to talk to someone who would reassure him and he would have something to look forward to when he got out. whenever he gets into trouble im the one he leans on and im okay with that. i give him hope he told me. ---------- am i making a mistake? *its like rain on your wedding day, its a free ride when you already paid, its the good advice that you just didnt take, who wouldve thought....it figures* - Alanis Morrissette