This stupid shit messed up this huge entry I just put in. Well time to start over. I just got back from North Carolina today. The car ride was six hours back to Jacksonville and it sucked.The highlight of the day was when I saw a turd hanging off the wall at a McDonalds bathroom,that was pretty funny.The only thing that saved that long boring car ride was the addition of my friend Preston to the mix we listened to music and whatnot all the way back.We stopped at a mall in georgia and guess what they didnt have a fucking music store so I was really forkin pissed because that is all I wanted to do at the mall.Georgia blows from what I have seen of it.Anyway we got back and I went upstairs and checked my e-mail and my best friend e-mailed me and told me this stuff happened yesterday and I felt really bad about it because I wasnt there to help her, kinda depressing, anyway she im'd me and I tried to help but I was too late which brought me down even lower and then I was talking and I was forced to leave so that again made me feel even worse about the whole situation and when I came back I was glad to see that she was still on so we got talking and I apoligized about it and I was starting to feel better and then I was forced to get off the computer, which took me lower than I was before. Then the stereo decided to get stuck in repeat on the song in this river which is depressing, do you see god hates me or at least thats the way it seems sometimes,and anyway now I have this very large urge to listen to In This River hmmmmmm........I am now stuck pondering the transcience of some relationships whether it be significant other relationships or friendship relationship it matters not.I thought for a moment today about what it would be like to lose my best friend and it hurt and I was really scared about the whole thing so I made a vow not to let that happen I am now again listening to In This River.Yay.Sarcasm is not very effective here is it? Wow I just realized there is a conection in the song I am listening to and what I said about being scared of losing my best friend Zakk is talking about Dime, who was his best friend, being taken from him, I really must be tired if I just now realized that well ttyl.