In six days i go back to the place i couldn't wait to leave. what will be waiting there for me except the pain that i left behind? will i be sucked back into the world that stripped me of myself? i hope not. i hope this is my closure. i hope this will be the final touch i need to move on from that life. i have yet to figure out what went wrong there. then again, maybe nothing went wrong. maybe that was merely just a growing experience and nothing more. i need to leave the pain behind. i need to collect what i learned there, and apply it to the future i have here. i am going back to California to say goodbye. i will return here in January to begin my new life.