finally. i really feel happy again. i mean yeah the times i am the happiest i am thinking about/dreaming about/hanging out with/or talking to Britian.. but still. I just feel really good. Things are starting to get better. I have done something like every day for the past week and half. Getting out of my house is really helping. I have been hanging out with Kevin a lot lately which is really cool cause i haven't been able to talk to him in sooo long.. and now we are friends again. its really good. he hasn't been doing so good lately so i am just happy i get to be there for him. me and him can fucking make anything fun. lol anways... basically just updating. bye for now. xo