i don't want to leave! ahfwfncwclasc. werlfj myspace is being a bitch. >>dangit. i really don't know what i am doing anymore. i really don't. once you think you ahve thing figured out they just fuck up. i miss my home &i'm here, but there's still something missing. i can't stay here and i know that, but i wish i could. my ♥heart is in orcutt. i don't know what to do anymore. i'm so lost. my mind is so messed up on every perspective. today i was sitting and thinking for awhile about how i want someone really bad, but i dont wanna get hurt again, so i dont. i just go aorund looking for love in all the wrong places. drunken nights &drunken faces. I LIKE YOU. why don't they ever get that? but i canh't be with them. oh fuck you don't even know what i'm talking about now. something is missing. i just don't know what.. >josshh i cannot wait until we have that picnic! ahh it's gunna be so chill &so fun. i misss you..