I've really straightened up with math homework and what not. Yay! BOOOOO. I started my period and we are doing sliding practice tomorrow. :[ As if I'm not a bad slider anyways. Yayyyyy! Harry Potter is coming out July 21st! I pre-ordered it and got a ticket thingymabob that me and my sister are going to take to the midnight Harry Potter celebration. NERDS!! Yayyy I made varsity softball team.

EVER! My family is so stupid! I'm going to grow up and be a freaking lawyer because at least in the court, they have a fair system! In my house.. the judge decides what they want, when they want it, and if they want some fries with it! There is no time for the defense to defend themselves. The judge gets to talk and talk and interrupt people all they want and the defense better just shut up! There is no jury.. the judge doesn't need another person's opinion! This house is a freaking dictatorship! No dictatorship is good. Look at Saddam Hussein or Julius Ceaser. THEY'RE DEAD. One day I hope the judge WAKES UP & GROWS UP.

Yay! ** is back in my life... and in the same way. My song came true. Too bad nobody reads this...

I am like so bored. And I recently got an addiction to dumb road signs that people take pictures of and put online. So like, this is going to have a bunch of them in it. Hey, guess what? It's my cousin Bethany's birthday today. She's is a Missing Person but my aunt still celebrates her birthday and my mom is out with her right now. I think she would be 17 now? She's been missing since 2001 and she was 11 when she went missing I'm pretty sure. Anyways, my birthday was January 28th. I am now officially 13, so yeah.. I'm like soo much more mature. NOT. But get over it honeys. I'm gonna need to change my age now! Yayyy. Ok so here are some awesome signs.. And they say teen violence is getting worse... :[ ROADTRIP! The last safe place... Thanks for the heads up. You can bet I'll be at the next hockey game with a sign like this. YOU'RE NOT WELCOME. Dangit.. shouldn't have took the lawnmower. Can you hold it? The perfect job. Wait.. what? That's pretty awesome right there. It looks like there is more than one way. :[ Hahahahahhaaaa. Aren't you addicted now?

You know, it's not stupid to have an online journal. I read something someone wrote that said that. It's not stupid to want to have aplace to empty yours thoughts in. I have so many thoughts and I just dont want to think them. When I am feeling really overwhelemed and what not I just write in here. I know that this will be here (until the site closes) so I can go back later and look at it all. I don't want to keep this in a journal that I have to write in ebcause 1. It makes my hand hurt after writing so much. 2. I don't want someone to find it. Online I just don't really care what anyone thinks. I let total strangers read it but I dont really care. No one is really reading this anyways. Nobody even comes here. It's like I have put the journal on private but not really because they could read it they just aren't This is more for me than anyone else though so I am not as concerened about people reading my journal as I used to be when I was younger. You know I started this journal when I was 10? That was a while ago. You know I have alot of secrets and jjunk and I hate to think of them. I like coming here and writing. I am just writing and writing right now nothing I am saying makes any sense and I feel bad. I made a new rule for myself. No internet after 7 pm. That is going to be hard to fulfill. Anyways, bye.

So I'm sick.. ya it sux. I have to take mucinex and antibiodix to get better. I was NOT very willing to get a shot in my big behind cuz I hate that. If the shot was anywhere else maybe but the doctors are always wantin to look at your stuff!! Lol That's why I hate going to the doctor. I hate doctors. Yuck. One way or another they have to see you naked. I went in to the doctor today because I have a sore throat and no voice AT ALL and my ears are popping and I'm stuffed up. None of that has anything to do with my butt so I'm all of confused why I would have to get a shot down there to be better. I refused so now it's gonna take 5 days for me to get better. But it's all good. So I decided to continue my sitdiary. I have to have a place to write down all my stuff. Some of these might be private entries but most you can probably see. I dont want to blog it on my myspace or anything where my friends can see and I dont want to write it down in a notebook where it might get lost and be read. I needed an onliune journal and I'm glad I still got this one. I'm not looking forward to school starting. I really hate school. No boys like me and I really dont like being catergorized in my little group of unpopular girls. I really wanted to go to a new school to start new and get a different category. But I didn't. i mean I like some of the girls in my 'group' but they are all so goofy. They are my friends no doubt but all my other friends outside school are so much more cool than them. I am not considered very popular because I hang out with them and it really just annoys me. Why cant they act normal???? The only person i really kind of relate to is Raegan. She is less goofy than the other three of my friends. She's going through this gangster stage tho where all she wants to do is take gangster pics of herself and post them on the internet. Lol she thinks that she looks cool. But anyways all the 'popular' ppl at my school are not really as popular as they think they are. Most of them are more goofy than my friends. I'm just dreading going bck to school. I really just hate them categorizing me. I like hanging out with some of them who will care to hang out with me. I'm going into 7th grade btw. But some of them are so standoffish. That's why this year all of my outfits are going to be pefect. I am never going to have an off day. So at least if my status is low my clothes are going to rock! I will always feel pretty every day of the week. If I'm sick, sad, whatever.. I'm going to look hot! I want a boyfriend this year. I never ask anybody out but whenever a boy asks me out I usually dont like him. One of my goals is to talk to Matt Swindoll more! I want himt o nitce me. Matt is going to be in the 9th grade this year and I'm going to be in 7th. He is so hott. I have a pic of him I will post. I dont talk to him much but lol he always would come up to me and ask if I was gonna drink all my drink on the bus. Of course I would always say no and give it to him lol. He drank after me! Sa-weet! I know I sound like a dork and I kind of am. I'm boy crazy that's what. I think I want to try to live my life like i won't be there the next day. Like this isn't even my life and if I get humiliated than it doesn't matter because ia m moving to a different body the next day. That way alot more will get done. Lol I will probably get a boyufriend I actually like and I will get more friends. My same ol goofy friends from 4th grade will expect me to be their friend and only their friend but I really wanna break out of a group. On my softball team I was everybody's friend. I didn't hang out with a certain group. I was just a floater and I had a great time. I don't know who to sit with at lunch. I know that this year our little group has got to ghet to sitting with the icky boys. Lol. It kind of started late last year. Richard and Blake Rich started sitting with us. Mostly because Richard was going out with Scarlet but actually I like them both. They are nice even though annoying and goofy I would liike them around. i want to sit with them at lunch. OKay well I have aout talked myslef out but ya know I dont know if I'm quite done.

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So, I wrote a song. It's in a pretty raw state right now but I wrote a few verses that go along with a song ** recorded on my piano. This song is about ** by the way. And I miss you I miss the time that was spent And live your life for the damn moment Don't lose the ones you love If you don't think you could love anyone else... And I miss you And they miss you too And she misses you too You need to think about everyone you're hurting It's not just hurting you and her Don't forget about your second family You could hang around but it'd have to be the same Chorus: And I need you in my life It'd have to be the same and not any other way Bridge: I don't understand what you were thinking I don't understand why it has to be this way Love the ones you love Care for the ones you care for Don't leave your soulmates in the cold CHORUS I can't live my life forgetting about you I hate to leave behind unfinished friendships You can't come back Without coming back first It'd have to be the same CHORUSx2 Tell me.. do you like it? What do you think about it? How would you interpret this song? I love finding out the meanings of songs and maybe if you like that too, you can comment what you think and I'll post about it in my next entry. See ya.

Ya know what's a really great book? How To Be Popular By Meg Cabot. I didn't expect it to be like the awesomest book ever but it was one of those books that made my stomach have butterflies. It was so cute and sweet and only little parts of it were corny. Most of it was very real. Anyways.. if you didn't guess, today was a snow day. Which is why I have been on the computer so much. Gosh I hate algebra. I just did some. I know I like failed. I hope I'm not failing math. That would suck. Since I'm in honors. GOSH. OKAY. Bye.