So I'm sick.. ya it sux. I have to take mucinex and antibiodix to get better. I was NOT very willing to get a shot in my big behind cuz I hate that. If the shot was anywhere else maybe but the doctors are always wantin to look at your stuff!! Lol That's why I hate going to the doctor. I hate doctors. Yuck. One way or another they have to see you naked. I went in to the doctor today because I have a sore throat and no voice AT ALL and my ears are popping and I'm stuffed up. None of that has anything to do with my butt so I'm all of confused why I would have to get a shot down there to be better. I refused so now it's gonna take 5 days for me to get better. But it's all good. So I decided to continue my sitdiary. I have to have a place to write down all my stuff. Some of these might be private entries but most you can probably see. I dont want to blog it on my myspace or anything where my friends can see and I dont want to write it down in a notebook where it might get lost and be read. I needed an onliune journal and I'm glad I still got this one. I'm not looking forward to school starting. I really hate school. No boys like me and I really dont like being catergorized in my little group of unpopular girls. I really wanted to go to a new school to start new and get a different category. But I didn't. i mean I like some of the girls in my 'group' but they are all so goofy. They are my friends no doubt but all my other friends outside school are so much more cool than them. I am not considered very popular because I hang out with them and it really just annoys me. Why cant they act normal???? The only person i really kind of relate to is Raegan. She is less goofy than the other three of my friends. She's going through this gangster stage tho where all she wants to do is take gangster pics of herself and post them on the internet. Lol she thinks that she looks cool. But anyways all the 'popular' ppl at my school are not really as popular as they think they are. Most of them are more goofy than my friends. I'm just dreading going bck to school. I really just hate them categorizing me. I like hanging out with some of them who will care to hang out with me. I'm going into 7th grade btw. But some of them are so standoffish. That's why this year all of my outfits are going to be pefect. I am never going to have an off day. So at least if my status is low my clothes are going to rock! I will always feel pretty every day of the week. If I'm sick, sad, whatever.. I'm going to look hot! I want a boyfriend this year. I never ask anybody out but whenever a boy asks me out I usually dont like him. One of my goals is to talk to Matt Swindoll more! I want himt o nitce me. Matt is going to be in the 9th grade this year and I'm going to be in 7th. He is so hott. I have a pic of him I will post. I dont talk to him much but lol he always would come up to me and ask if I was gonna drink all my drink on the bus. Of course I would always say no and give it to him lol. He drank after me! Sa-weet! I know I sound like a dork and I kind of am. I'm boy crazy that's what. I think I want to try to live my life like i won't be there the next day. Like this isn't even my life and if I get humiliated than it doesn't matter because ia m moving to a different body the next day. That way alot more will get done. Lol I will probably get a boyufriend I actually like and I will get more friends. My same ol goofy friends from 4th grade will expect me to be their friend and only their friend but I really wanna break out of a group. On my softball team I was everybody's friend. I didn't hang out with a certain group. I was just a floater and I had a great time. I don't know who to sit with at lunch. I know that this year our little group has got to ghet to sitting with the icky boys. Lol. It kind of started late last year. Richard and Blake Rich started sitting with us. Mostly because Richard was going out with Scarlet but actually I like them both. They are nice even though annoying and goofy I would liike them around. i want to sit with them at lunch. OKay well I have aout talked myslef out but ya know I dont know if I'm quite done.