dam ..damm..DAAMMMMMMMM.. i lost..

by ithelost
Feeling: damned
i hate it ...i hate it all ....no one ever ask me for anything anymore...i want nothing from any of you...i dont want to give antything any more....i just want to be left alone now...no more anything...no mre for me please....just leave...just leave me in myself now....leave me for them...those few...those few out there who want me .....just leave please..PLEASE ....JUST GO....GO OUT...OUTSIDE MY HEAD...OUT THERE IN THE WARPTH OF THE SUN...AWAY FROM THIS DARK THING U CALL MYSELF....away from everyone....and as i lay here dying...i will scream...scream for everything to come back...scream for waht i want but denie myelf everyday.....scream it all away into your ears...even though your outside and you cannot here me...i will not stop screaming....dam.......dammit...DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.........(sniff)....damit all.....dam me ....and my ways of lost and broken dreams ...ill lay them on the floor outside so u can exchange them everyday for cold water and stale bread...and when my dreams are gone ill give you my heart...my bleeding pumping heart....cuz it will be the last thing i see in myself...the last thing anyone will have from me.....so i hope u keep it on your mantles and over your doors....to remind the future i was here...tht i died for you....i died from you....have a nice day
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that kid in the picture up top, he goes to my church. how ironic
[Anonymous]
Bright Eyes
Ah i must do you now. They are my favorite band. Hmm.

If that guy in the top left were me i'd be asexual. That sounds so weird.
whoa whats with the entry..angry child...let me use my magical powers to make you happy..*gives you E* viola..you are happy now.
i made you smile..god damn im cool. or maybe you are lying to me to make me feel special. i dunno. i used to have yahoo and msn
[Anonymous]
god damn word limit. yea well i gave it like 17 viruses..on accident and all i have is aim...yea booya. btw this is pinktoenails..
[Anonymous]
maybe i should sign on or something..naw that wouldnt be cool. anonymous sounds better. i killed a bunch of ants and i smell raid. dude.
[Anonymous]
im feeling obsessive here or something..but its the word limit. thats just stupid. yea im your stalker and i enjoy leaving you random comments.
[Anonymous]
aim is not the devil.i like yahoo though cuz it has that doodle thinger and i get to draw pretty stick figures for random ppl. i download bunches of stuff and lots of pictures so i blame myself for the viruses plus i downloaded this thing to boot ppl cuz this guy kept doing it to me and that gave me a trojan.haha trojan man. thats really uncomfortable when that comes on the radio and you're in the car with your dad and its blaring. family bonding
well your stalker is going to bed now. g'nite. sleep tight, dont let the bed bugs bite. i'd like to know who was the stupid fuck that made up that little saying..you just dont tell little kids that. i always thought these big cockroach-like bugs would come and eat me in my sleep. ah well, sweet dreams.
he doesnt go to my church, idk who he is. not only that, i go to church like, once a year when im forced to with my mom. i was just being annoying.
[Anonymous]
thank you i like your diary too. im sorry tho i dont have msn or yahoo i only have an aim screen name.
yea your hott. love your hair hehe ok ill stop but thx for the comment
[Anonymous]
wow. that was really deep, but i know exactly how you feel. i used to write about it but i stopped. i may put something up soon though, i bet you could relate.
-gina
[Anonymous]