Married life isn't turning out to be the bliss that i had expected. We had a huge fight, not sure who's fault it should be..i don't think it matter much right now. It's been 3 days since the fight, we haven't talked about anything Some really shitty shit happened, D took the fight to a dangerous level. It seems like they are just getting worse. I'm hurt still and confused if i should just let things be. He hasn't expressed his remorse at all other then the fact that he's desperatly trying to cuddle me. Is that the only appology i get?? I think that he really needs to apoligize for his actions since he took it way too far. I can accept that fights happen but not this. I almost feel like a battered woman or something although it wasnt' as bad as that would imply. But the things he did, or tried to do to himself and the things that he did do where horrible. I don't want to live my life this way...is this the way it will always be? Why did i think that some things would change by them selves once we were married. I just thought he would want to do more be more now that it's us, not jsut him. Did i make a mistake? I'm mad that he doesnt' seem to want to talk about this or anything...is it always going to be this way, I don't want it to be this way. How are we ever going to be able to raise kids, we can't talk about anything and nothing we think is ever the same. i'm stressed to the max, the wedding took such a toll on my resorses, and the piper is calling and calling. I have no cash, being married screwed up the loans a bit and it's taking way long, and it's been way long. And that's the other thing about it too...no apprication for getting us threw to this point. It has been all me supporting us and financing our wedding and the majority of our honeymoon. What more does he want...blood from a stone? I can't have a relationship by myself and right now that is what it feels like. I Still don't know if i should be mad? He was like this to a degree when i married him and threw out the 7 year relationship that lead up to our union. I'm scared it will just get worse, that it wil progress into a spiral of hurt, and whatever. It bothers me, I can't shake it, and i can't handle this stress. I've done all i can and now i feel like i'm left to die alone. he still could leave so easily without the tires. Afterall all the bills are in my name, the consumer debt is mine although he sure doesn't complain about my debt when he's helping me spend the money and i provide all our daily needs. What ever happened to the guys supporting the household.