i'm pissed off as i face the possibility of divorce. I feel like it's all been some huge mistake and i don't know y i was stupid enough to make it. why didn't i know that this was going to turn out like shit. Apparently everything that i am and been doesn't interst him anymore. Like less then a week ago he was telling me that he loves me no matter what and that he needs me. ya he just needed to get laid. He's insulting and rude. and he's got some fuckin blinders on, cause he's greatly missinformed and totally wrong. I fuckin hate him right now. i have suspisions that he has cheated already, hence why he won't come home right away. i don't even know where he is. i thought that maybe he's at kw's and sm but i don't really know. fuckin cock suckin asshole. i feel so betrayed. i can't beleive how wrong he is how stupid his veiw is and telling me to do the math, he's the one who has no clue how thing are in reality. fuckin loser goof. and by the way it's him who hasn't showered for like four days and wears the same cloths every fuckin day. asswipe. Fuckin loser jerk i fuckin hate him. i'm not taking him back now he really blew it. like really. i can't believe him. fuckin drama queen jd was right when she said that i could do much better. my pride is hurt now, how foolish can't even make my marriage last a year. not even a year. plus with kk's wedding fast approaching i am really not happy, i'm embarreseed and depressed. it's so not fair. i'm really pisssed off beyond beleive. my life is realy sucking right now i have no money no friends no life no man but i'm fuckin married. god dam it. i'm so screwed. help me somebody. why did this have to happen, why would the cosmos let me marry this jerk, how coul they do that to me when i had such strong opinion aobut lthe traditional marraige thing come on give me a break. i can't handle this shit. it's driving me crazy school is so down the toilet, even before but especially now. i am so fucked. and he's just a greedy selfish fuckin bitch. stupid asshole. i'm so mad i'm bitter and i'm full of anger and hatred. how dare he say that shit to me. how fucking dare he after i've taken care of everything sinc the very begining how dare he when i do every fuckjing thing every fucking thing . like the asshole can't even write up his own papers. he asks for help but what he really is asking is for me to do it for him. stupid stupid jerk. why why dind't someone stop me from making this mistake. how embaressing , how pathetic. how stupid. i hate my life. i can't stress that enough. Ok that's my rant.