I still don't understand how relationships work. I somehow thought everything was going great in mine and that I had the most wonderful guy in the world. Hang on. Let me rephrase myself. I do have the most wonderful guy in the world. I did and I always will. Yes, we had our problems but they're over now. They've been over for over six months now - they've just been hiding. They came out for a little while but then they faded. They're not completely gone because I still think about how badly it hurt me. But it's all over with now and everything's going to be okay. He explained himself to me and it took about an hour for us to work things out. He said he didn't mean what he said to her. He was just telling her what she wanted to hear so she would comfort him and give him attention when I wasn't at the time. He felt as if he was dead to my heart at the time and that there was no hope of saving our relationship. He said that his intentions were good when we met and first started dating. He also thought that our relationship would be one like the ones in his past - just flings that only last a couple months. He said he had no idea he would grow to love me so much. He realizes now with his feelings for me that he never did love her. He just cared for her as a person a lot more than he did the other people in his life at that time. But he said he realizes that he is truely in love with me and that he could never loose me or he'd loose himself. He said that during our entire relationship, he never had feelings for her and rarely thought about her - and when he did think about her, it was just about memories that were kept in the back of his mind. He said that he and I are meant to be - and that is that. And he knows that now after everything we've been through and what we have overcome as lovers. So I'm glad we were able to work things out. I am extremely relieved that none of the things said were meant. And I do trust him on this. I know I can trust him now. Don't worry. I wasn't going to committ suicide or anything like that. I'm still around. But I'm still hurting a little bit behind that smile I just gave you.