actully im more than confused... im extremly confused!!...its so weird. i had a really long good talk with somone today and they explained to me alot of stuff... i guess i was kinda being selfish... in a way... but it hurts you know... so yea i dnoo but ok so i was thinking ... i wanna make this summer the best ever... and i wasnt really thinking how other people felt. So im going to try now and see it in my friends point of view... of this little "fight" we are having... 1 fight of 1000nds ... so yea we will see where this leads us... i think we need 2 have a talk ... because i can no longer go without telling u the thruth...so if u want to kno ... ask... ok and also i think i might like sumone ellse ... its weird but i dno i dont really want a bf this summer but we will see what happends because this summer is soppose to kick ass... i had a really good lesson about not being so selfish and only caring how i feel because when i might be hurting... i might be hurting other people as well... i have to care about other people are their feelings and not always assume that i know what they want. Ill try to make the best of things and realize that the hole world doesnt have to revolve around me and they way that i am feeling... for my "friend" ...i guess i wasnt really concidering how u were feeling and what i was doing... i was being selfish and 2 stuborn 2 listen to more that just what i have 2 say... so im gonna stop assuming nd thinking the worst.... i think we should talk about this nd i want to listen to how u feel about whatever... we have both changed but for me it was kinda hard to admitt it ... so im gonna try alittle harder to not be so selfish and think about only what i want. peace sammie--- summer has just started and i have already learned more then u can imagine ps...- i was watching rugrats... yea im gay i kno ... but ok then taught me a very important lesson... ok so chuck and kimmy were mad at tommy nd susie because they thought they liedl... but then susie told chuck...BEST FRIENDS ARE SOPPOSE TO BELIVE EACHOTHER EVEN WHEN EVERYONE ND EVERYTHING IS TELLING THEM NOT 2...so it got me thinking... if we are true best friends... maybe i should rethink this....