well... im sitting here in my room at 7:50 in the morning ... nd now i dont think i will be able to go out this weekend because i missed my bus 2 school... my dad is at work... nd sister slept out last night nd my mom is such a fucking bitch who doesnt believe nething i say. and im seriously in the worst mood right now... what a start of a good friday huh?... this week has been so weird... my mom is fucking crazy and wont do nething, im not friends wit 1 of my best friends anymore and all i wanna do now is die. Iv started somthing like i used to and i shouldnt have. But fuck it no1 cares so i wont eaither. I really just wana go away from people right now blah this is so gay.... but not everyone just some people nd its stupid i think but im a girl with depression nd i get mad so easly and i just fall so quickly .... well neways im gunna try nd go back 2 sleep so i dont feel so bad... here are some things i wrote this week your thinking far in animasity you soul is feeling quite so empty your losing breathe far to simply its finding querulous all around talk so softly not a sound cuz he is here trying to hurt you theres nothing more u can do your trying not to be capricious your always feeling hurt and selfish it has 2 stop before you break theres only so much that you can take im standing up.standing clear standing tall all out of fear iv givin up on giving in feeling down was my worst sin iv let u get to me more then i thought now my days have fallen apart but im standing here standing tall this is the last time i will fall cuz i can forgive but not forget your the first thing i regret so take a look nd then youl see your like does not matter 2 me ill look around trying to see if this is right am i losing somthing or gaining a fight is this soppose to be hard for us both cuz ill bend and ill break only alittle to take ill look but will i see then emptyness or hate will i find a new begining, a new life 2 persue or will this be a sweet surrender to you? im asking myself the question did i do somthing wrong in this or am i making the right move cuz im holding onto this gruge one started at the begining those memories mean nothing so ill fold but ill fold nd never come back again because i havent cried a drop for nothings going to get me out nd nothing gunna stop