in a nutshell im having like a panic attack coz i was writing my eng cw which was about help for teens with cancer n i wrote one sentence (just one) about wigs which reminded me of the last time i ever saw my friend lauren, who i'd grown up with n we both had the same type of cancer n the last time i ever saw her was at a hospital xmas party n she was wearin a wig coz she was going through chemo n she died about 3 months later n just through that 1 sentence it set me off, im on the verge of tears, cant do my cw n have immense sadness maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan this is way too complicated for words fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkhibn im sorry R.I.P Lauren