i have looked back at all my entries and ..i was obessive .... geeze maybe Jeff did have the right to do SOME of the things he did to me ......some............ now i just want to go to Jeff and tell him i'm sorry for the way i have acted but i can't :( i'm not talking to him and for the best reasons ... all i want to do is say sry though...... well Jeff if you ever read this i'm sorry ....but i doubt you will ....... well anyway i usually go to bed around 8 but no not tonight ... i have to wait for steven to call me at 11 and watch i'll stay up till then and he'll never call.... well we'll find out what will happpen ......g2g for now byes ..................BOB !!!!!!(Erika)