i am not who i want to be

by marijane on October 25th 2007, 12:00PM

i prolly will not ever be. i dont know whats happening these days. im working. theres some to show for it but im constantly questioning if its enough. im slanging. using drug money for drugs. could be saving up but i havent started yet. im smoking. but i never feel high enough. and i always feel low. im fighting. with the few people i even have as friends. over nothing stupid bullshit. i am not who i want to be. i prolly will not ever be.

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i still plan on visiting your restaurant one day.
even if cokes whats for dinner...ill have a reservation.
ur gonna make it happen.

[arienette]

I always liked the fake it till you make it addage. Just act like you already are who you want to be and you'll get closer to actulay being it. Or at least you'll be something else.

[lastchance4sanity]

i think you should write a book.
a sad, sarcastic, hilarious book. i would read it twice.

[arienette]