Lord, It's time a new journey in my life begins. Life is hard to say the least, but it's more than ever I realize how much more of You I truly desire. Being where I'm at is nice - it's not too much or too little, but it's time I feel You are calling me to step up to a higher level and switch over to extreme... to be a "Jesus Freak". You've given me so many chances Lord, and for that I'm forever grateful - but I've gotten caught in the midst of going through the motions and being satisfied where I'm at. But Father, no longer am I satisfied. My soul thirsts for so much more of You, and so much less of me. You've seen every place I've been in my life and every place I will be... You've seen my joyous times on top of the mountain but also my heart-wrenching moments in the valley of despair. I love You for being there, always, every step of the way. Forgive me for often overlooking You though and turning my back time after time. I don't feel that I've completely turned my back on You now... but I feel like I'm flirting with satan a bit and working my way closer to him and farther from You. Please forgive me and don't let me cause any hardships and trials that are not in Your will for me. So Lord, this is what I feel You're calling me to do... 40 days... of what exactly? Not sure, I trust that You will show me. But here in this journal, for the next 40 days I plan to write You and can't wait for the many things I know You'll teach me. Show me Your will Lord and that's what I'll follow. You've given me a passion for teenagers - help me be a Christ like example for them. Help me strengthen my personal relationship with You and teach me how to love You like I should. Also Lord, strengthen my witness and expand the ministry You have through me. Let it explode ten fold, for Your glory Lord. Take me through whatever - just help me be completely dependent on You. "i wanna be mistaken" Love you! FROM THIS DAY FORWARD I WILL BE A SLAVE FOR CHRIST - DOING WHATEVER HE SHOULD CALL ME TO DO, REGARDLESS OF HOW I FEEL AND FOLLOWING HIM BY FAITH EVEN WHEN TIMES ARE ROUGH AND SEEM IMPOSSIBLE. -Rachel