ugggh shes still in my mind. every song i listen to is almost about her. grrrrr i wanna cut soooo bad the urge is sooooo strong to but i dont think my friends will like that i feel my dad doesnt really care about me anymore just the beaners he sponsors for my team. he has a better relationship with them than me. grrrr i dont wana live anymore i wanna drop out of hs i wanna new life i wanna new girl BADLY i want someone i can tell everything to i mean everything not just fukin jibber jabber. like i wanna fukin die shit caz thats how i fukin feel right now till::next::time xxx