If there was only a time when i did not feel this empty-niss inside my heart, if there were only a time when i was not broken down, if there was only time when i felt as if a part of some one's life. if only there were these moments i would feel wanted, i would feel as if i belonged, but thats all they really are... and that's emotions. if only u could feel with out feelings, would u be better off, i wish i were emotionless with out pain,or hurt, or broken, abused, i would feel better off. but then agaian.... You would never feel the times of warmpth, when around loved ones, or the the times u enjoy with ur friends but in some cases these events are'nt all ways so luminous and joyful, such as Christmas. Gifts are great and all but then u realize everything u are missing in life such as a loved one etc it just tares u down and u feel as if u are broken into many glass shards, scattered across the floor and u feel as if u will never be mended or put back to gether again. Or is that i feel as if i am the only one put in this drak corner of triumph. what do i do to cure this innevitable pain, drink, turn to drugs what, then i just put my self ten times deeper in the hole then i already am. i wish i could just let my self go and not care for any such thing that life puts in my path. Well i am going to try to put my thoughts together and see were that puts me at.