so i didnt get a vd card from anyone,not jayson,not mom,not jasmine,i feel worthless,and all i want to do is go to angies,fuckkk.i dont wanna see sara at this point,cuz that would mean her mothering me about my father and kathy,i hate it,she doesnt understand it,what i really went through,and she stands there acting like shes a phycologist,when her life is just as fucked up as mine is and was.i just want to change.i feel like i want to cry forever because i hate my father mentally and i feel the same about shelburne but physically also,its not fair,that my father did this to me and i let him.carinas gone,and ive gone bi,and ive gone argumentative about something i dont know,craig drives me crazy with his nagging,i feel like im in sp,i dont want to be rude and walk away because he isnt my father.but somehow mom always stands up for him.i just cant wait to be on my own,under my own rules.