SOOO me and ryan are hanging out tomorrow,yay!!!cant wait,im so tired,i got loaded last night,i was mad/depressed cuz jasyon left me for a party when we never talk.and he better fuckin come on thursday.i love time with ryan,but it barely ever happens cuz hes always busy or soemthing,maybe if i was a phyco stalker id see him more often,lol.i know i would,well i see him at school and shit,talk to him once in a blue moon,but thats it.not at all like the fun we have like at the movies or the concert.and hes sooo funny,he makes me smile so much.*sigh*perfection is always so far away,whenever its the closest to you.