OKay last night was fun. Everyone at bens house was fucking nuts though. I got accepted SO NOW ITS OFFICIAL> I START MONDAY AS A GULF BREEZE JUNIOR!!!!!! I dont like being around so many people i dont know when they are drinking.I wanted to Kick Devin Deul's (spl) little stupid whore bitch ass. Angel was pretty cool, though. Anyways i feel lost, like in a daze. Ben totally suprised me last night. I never knew he could be so, just inconsiderate(spl). I thought he didnt have it in him. But he is a big asshole. How can you do that to someone that your supposed to love unconditionally???????? I love him to death and i think that the persno that he used to be, that the ben that i used to know is getting pushed down. I need to figure out a way how to tell him that. I cant put myself around people who only bring themselves down. I wish ben could read this. I wish he knew how much that you cared for him. When you were crying, when you were talking about your heart being ripped out, it was killing me. Just to know that one of my best friends could hurt one of my greatest friends ever. And no matter what i will be here for you, b/c you know who you are. im always just around the block. I hope this passes, soon ans you find someone who could treat you like you should be treated,uhm,(who you were talking to last night was a good choice)lol smile:):):):):)[|:) my last one has a hat on) trust me you didnt do anything wrong, it wasnt your fault at all. my mom is bitching like always, i want to go to the beach so bad tonight. Hopefully we can forget all our troubles with britt, and everyone. Party HARD!! FUck it i'll drive. lol.