so im done with dating for now, like ive been thinking and im just like w/e. I have feelings but i need to listen to my brain for once and not my heart b/c listening to my heart is what keeps fucking me up. I dont understand why i can't ever find a girl who i can talk to like really talk to, like the first person i want to tell about something good or bad. Someone who always has a shoulder to cry on, someone that isnt afraid of how they feel, and what everyone else is going to think about the situation. Someone intelligent who i can carry on a smart conversation with. Or watch movies like American Beauty and not have to explain the whole point of the plot to who im watching it with. Yes there is someone who i am getting to know a lot better, and would def. explore the situation with but, i dont know. Im just sick of always laying my emotions out on the table and getting them stepped on, like they dont even matter. Anyways, i def. am so frustrated like who the hell is in gb for me? for real its getting to that point. but w/e. im done ranting about my love life or i guess the lack there of. Peace out and thanks for listening to me bitch. Much love to all. Muah! Koester Long live beandilla!!!!!