Tonight I leave on my first ever float trip. How sad is that...I'm how old and this is the first time I've been on one? Thing is, I'm not sure whether or not I'm really looking forward to it. I've heard everyone say they're really fun...but there are people who like to get drunk and wasted, too, and their opinions don't necessarily line up with mine. What I'm most concerned about is how comfortable I'm going to be around the people we're going with. I'm not exacly a social butterfly, and the more I hang around certain people, the more isolated I feel. Nothing's quite as sad as being surrounded by people and knowing you're alone. Alcohol usually helps me to relax enough to enjoy myself...but if I was really having fun, I wouldn't need the alcohol. I wish I knew more people to hang out with who have more in common than the ability to drink. It would be nice to feel like part of a group of friends rather than a tag-along girlfriend. Instead, I always feel uptight and out of place. Maybe I'll have a wonderfull time and be able to look back at this entry knowing I was worried about nothing. *crosses fingers and hopes*