Why do I get this way? For unexplainable reasons, I feel on the brink of breaking down and crying. Every time I breathe, I can feel my throat constricting, my eyes blurring, and my heart sinking. I feel detatched from everything and everyone. Things that usually comfort me are becoming routine and losing their shimmer. I don't feel lovable anymore. I feel alone and unwanted. Most of all, I feel stupid for feeling this way. This over-emotional state comes and goes for no apparent reason. Every once in a while, I just need a hug. A real one, not just a half-hearted one. The kind that make you feel so safe and warm you get lost in it. I can't seem to get enough of that.